wow, its been a while since i'v written a long entree.  sorry.  ok updates:

i had this cat who didnt have a collar, and was kind of like a neighborhood cat.  he was really skinny and his fur was all ratty.  he was so sick.  finnaly last week he showed up at our door and we let him in.  and that was it.  he didnt have to fight to survive anymore.  he, isaiah (as we called him), just completly retired in our care.  we washed him and fed him.  the next day we brought him to an animal hosiptal because we realized that we alone couldnt nurse him back to health.  isaiah needed profesional care.  at the hosiptal, the doctor told us that he was so incredibly sick she was suprised he was still breathing.  we decided to put him to sleep.  and although it was so sad, i learned so much from isaiah.  he's one of the animals i hope to stand side-by-side when i go to heaven. 

ok so that paragraph just saddned me a lot to write. 

crew started, and i havent been going much.  but lexi and graci say that they're short on people so im practically in running crew already.  so thats good.  but it dosent mean i slack off so im going to try and make the meets more.  but ari's in the play and she says its just overall bad.  i havent heard many good things about curarri's directing, rather, i'v heard that natalie glick is doing it all.  i give her a lot of credit.  really. 

yeah so there are two rumors going around.  one about me and my friends, and one about whether or not it is a kid i know that had the child porn.  ugh people should just MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS.

ya know, it suddenly occured to me that xanga's are pointless.  well not pointless, but ur expressing ur problems and thoughts on a site that anyone can look at.  i dont feel to comfortable about people i dont even konw reading and knowing about me.  they can do that by meeting me in person if they want to get to know me.  so i guess this will be my last entree.  sorry, loudman, and all the others that like to read mine.  but this is it, im making it a point to keep my inner life close to me now and not spread it around and talk about personal things that people need not and should not know.  its a habit that im going to now break.  but its funny, when i think of talking about personal things a lot i think of talking about so much with spector.  he's just one example.  i barely know the true him and every time we talk, i blurt out every detail about everything in my life, and he never returns the facts of his life.  its got to stop.  well not to an extreme stop, but i think i should definately lessen the talking. 

and in case ur interested at all, i made AM Wired.  and im really happy.

and im finnaly going to get off of my butt this summer and have a job and volunteer work AND mabye go to a camp for the first time.  who knows, mabye something extrodinary will happen even before then.

much love to isaiah...
and my girls in 'makes out.'  <~ were all truely insane in our own unique way. 

keep ur hopes up, i dont think im canceling the actual xanga account so i think form now on im just gonna write lite and have pictures, etc. on it.  but dont expect it often....

i love u all.  (waaaaaaaaaaah i hate goodbye's!)  and here's one more "Gary-Larson-comic-at-the-end-of-a-long-entree" comic: